Disposables // #10

Updating this space on the internet is not usually on my mind anymore, but it does hold some special memories. While for now it mostly just sits here, I wouldn't dream of taking it down. For that reason I still see it as a place (my place) to do with as I please, and if that means posting some photos every two years: so be it! These photos are largely from last summer: I traveled around Europe for two months and didn't even fill up one whole disposable camera! But the last few weeks I finished up the film so in this post there are things from Summer 2016 as well as (almost) Summer 2017. Wheeeee!

Seattle in the summer is remarkable and that was reason enough for me to pick up another disposable camera today at the store. At one point I had a goal to go through a disposable camera every month, and that was closer to being actualized back when I was in college a few years ago. (See the "Disposable" posts below...) Who knows, maybe I'll get back into it. :)

x o x o E

Italia in Disposables, Part II

A thousand years later, here I am, deciding to share more disposable photos from my trip to Italy this summer. Now that some time has passed and I've been back in Seattle and school, I'm feeling a really strong urge to travel again. I know there are so many places and countries to explore, but I feel like I only saw a sliver of what Italy has to offer. Looking back on my time there, it's hard to believe I was only there for a month. While it was occurring, it felt like such a long time, but thinking about it in the scheme of things, it was miniscule. 

Who knows when I'll leave North America again? I guess until then, I'll hold on to these memories.

x o x o x o x E

Italia in Disposables

I've been holding back from writing anything here about my trip to Italy just because I suppose I have so much to say and yet how do I go about saying it? Much to everyone's dismay, I didn't bring the big ole' real camera on the trip (yes, I know, how could I not? what was I thinking?????). I guess I can't explain how I feel about the topic of photography or my DSLR. I'm just not in the place where I want to take "real photos" (or whatever you want to call that?) I'm not about that right now; and I'm not really about blogging right now. Anyway, that's not the point. The point is that going to Italy was wonderful and I almost don't know if it actually happened? It was a little less than a month ago, and much has happened in between now and then – but I have all these memories inside of me. 

I did not go into this trip with expectations: if I'm being honest, I didn't truly think about the fact I was leaving America until it was actually happening and then I was gone and seeing this whole new world and then a month later I was back again and nothing was different but everything was different.

Traveling is exhausting, that is a truth to me. I've been traveling most of this summer it seems? Italy – Seattle – California – Seattle – Michigan – Seattle – Vancouver, BC (this next week!) – Seattle. I mean, it's not that much. But I've just been back and forth back and forth back and forth. I'm such a homebody but travel and adventure are so exciting. Sometimes I don't consider myself an exciting person because I love the small, simple things so much. But I would rather die than stay in the same place my entire life. That's another truth. I'm working on the balance of wanting a calm life, and the desire to get all I can out of it. There's much to come.

These are just a few of the photos I took on the trip, so I'll probably do a follow-up post with more disposable photos.

x o x o x o Elanor

Disposables // #9

It's almost 2:30 am and here I am, back here, with a new perspective and also some new disposable photos. I guess I'm allowed to be up this late, because school has ended (Yeah, according to my recent blog posts, it seems I only just started... yet oops. It's June.) Can I just say a lot has changed since November. Ben and I broke up back in January, so the past few months have been about leaning on my friends – new and old. I have made a lot of new friends; some of which were always there, but only now have I given them a longer look. It's easy to get consumed with "boyfriend island" – definitely one of my downfalls. But here I am. Here and now.

In less than a week I'm going to be flying to Rome, Italy to study abroad for a month which will be the first time I'm traveling out of the country! I have so much anxiety about it (big surprise!) but a lot of it is excited nerves. Before Ben and I broke up, I was hesitant to leave the country this summer because I didn't know what it would mean for my relationship... fortunately that isn't an issue now, and I'm very thankful for this opportunity. I tell and retell myself everyday that everything happens for a reason. It must. I guess I don't know what to hold onto without that belief. I already have so little control; at least I can give up my need to control and just believe that everything will happen according to a plan; a plan that's better than anything I've thought of yet.

I didn't really love any photos that came out of this disposable. The year went by so fast and I don't think I really thought about photography or my silly disposable camera. I want to take more photos this summer and hopefully be a little more active on this blog. I say that every time I come back to post, but hopefully I can turn it around this time. At least try to show off things I've been working on lately – I'm studying visual communications at Seattle Pacific University and I think it's about time I make a website to show my portfolio. After all I'm going to be a senior soon. Any advice about that? How terrifying!!!!! :) :) :) Okay I think maybe I'll go to sleep now. Thanks for reading ?!?!

xoxoxoxoxo Elanor

Disposables // #8

Nearing end of the fall quarter here at SPU and I've got to say – this has been the busiest time I've had in college so far, I think. Taking four classes and having two jobs somehow is catching up to me. In any case, this same disposable camera has lasted since summer! I liked seeing some photos from California that I took when Ben and I went back there during August. Even though I don't really feel much like a photographer anymore, disposable camera memories keep my happy. :-)

xoxo Elanor